Hello.
It’s kind of like, this doesn’t feel like a sour ending, I don’t know. I know.
I don’t know, okay…
where are you going with this Robyn?
So, to expand on yesterday’s post further. I want to say this was maybe two years ago now, wow. I’ve never worked anywhere for a year lmao so, two years ago: I said that I was going to just try a variety of whatever things. Because how do you know if you love something if you never try it? Right, and this comes after the summer I quit my job to pursue my modeling dreams full-time right, and. (I’m trying to kind of speed the story along haha) but, after the; I guess you can say, the kitchen got too hot, the well dried up, whatever analogy: I kind of was left in scramble mode. And if I can keep it all the way 1000, money will not treat you like a friend if you continuously use it like it’s your enemy.
I knew I didn’t like the idea of “working’ and to be real, I still don’t babe. But I mean. After searching tirelessly for a job, I started my current job, and today, okay boom. So today.
Today
I hate this punk ass job so mothafucking bad, and i just want to be happy. That’s how I feel, that is how I feel. But okay today: today it feels like nothing will change, if nothing changes. And it changes with me. I don’t know where the girl with many hats went, or if she even went anywhere at all. But here’s the truth: I need to get the fuck asap. Yes, I’m sorry let me get this out REALLY quick:
I fucking hate it. Imagine cussing somebody out because of availability, like deadass. I hate this place; it brings the WORST out of people. Everybody be mad as fuck, like for what???? alright, sorry.
Really.
And I can’t stress enough, how much focus I put on the “how,” or the “what,” and it’s like, babe, whooooo.
And what I mean by that is this,
“Who is this person that you’re trying to become?”
I mean, I stopped thinking about how I’m going to do it, I stopped thinking about ideas man, and I mean seriously. Shit, look at this here:
Ideas without action are useless.
Helen Keller
Experiences, real-world experiences. Not thinking about xyz, and actually doing the abc. You know?
To me it looks like applying to different industries, researching different jobs/careers, and not forcing myself to have a full 5-year plan, while also not NOT having one. It’s like I’m trying to fully integrate who I am. The carefree, wild, attitude I had in the early years, and this structured, sort of responsible approach that I’ve been developing in the latter years. While, leaving room for whatever version of me is yet to come. And you know what, shit is really stupid as fuck. And I’m genuinely over it, if I could honestly put it in 20/20, to make it clear.
Stop stalking the future.
it’s more into you, than you realize.
You don’t have to launch a new business, sometimes you just need to switch up how your marketing is. That is to say, sometimes it’s not the lack of results, it’s the perspective, the identity.
The key to marketing is identifying customer needs, and all that— you’re the business, and the customer. Got me?
k bye
Robyn
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