The agony of living paycheck to paycheck is a hell that many of us encompass. However, I’m realizing just how effective budgeting actually is. For a long time, I thought that budgeting was impossible. Like, how? What do you mean save? All this to be responsible lmao. But now? I realize it’s not about spending less, it’s about spending with purpose.
I used to think budgeting was all about bills. No fun, no freedom, no fulfillment. Thankfully, I’m starting to understand that it is actually, a choice. of course, that’s all were given; a decision. I’m deciding, where my money goes. Hello? You sit there, STAND there and make the money: you get to decide how you manage it. Whether it’s going for a mani-pedi, an Uber to a model call, or a car fund. I’m spending with intention, my intentions: this is the shift.
Purposeful spending, transforming your relationship with money and aligning to your needs. It’s not exactly about treating myself right, it just means when I do, it feels good. There’s no guilt, and it is aligned with my purpose.
I can’t lie man, it’s still hard. Like, bro you telling me I do the work, and they get the check? I get so tempted to feel something else. Go ahead and splurge really quick.
Now, there’s a pause and I remind myself that
The version of me I’m becoming, she’s waiting on the other side of all the work, standing with clarity, moving with purpose.
So how do I get to her?
- I take control
- I can still get that pedicure and the outfit, and even the meal sometimes because that’s just how expensive it’s gotten. Where splurging is take-out.
- I plan for her
- What feels good long-term, not just in a moment. I try to remember that I’m human, and plans don’t always play out as I would like.
- I don’t shrink
- hey, i’d rather spend it all while I’m living… nah lmao. I realized that I can’t stop being me, because of circumstance. I’m honest about what matters to me, and what fuels my peace, keeps me sane.
The truth is, money will come in, and it will go out. The point is to give it direction. To give my future a chance. Budgeting didn’t make me less of who I am, it gave room for the version of me that I’m becoming.
So no, I’m not spending less-I’m spending with purpose. And that purpose is me.
K bye
Robyn

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